All I want is to be skinny, beautiful, successful... I mean this is what everyone wants, but it's what I literally need to be happy. It kills me to know that I won't be fully happy until I reach my goal, and how much pain and self control it will take to get there.
Deep dark secret #1: I have TERRIBLE trust issues. I always go through my boyfriend's browsing history on his computer because he promised me he wouldn't watch porn anymore, so I like to make sure he'snot, and I always see him looking at other girls on facebook, that are like totally skinny and tan and gorgeous, and it kills me inside. I know that as soon as I reach my goal, I will have so much more confidence and won't give a fuck.
I would really like for once to just know I am perfect and not give a fuck about anyone else, because everyone wants to be me.
Sorry for the depressing post. I just had to get some shit off my chest.
Love you all.
xx
Oh and one more thing,
every picture I put on my blog was taken by yours truly ;)